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hatemail

by Pacing

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    Home-burned and hand-made from on the road (I currently live in a Honda Fit while moving across the country lol).

    Each CD turns out a little different, and it's not going to look exactly like this photo, but I promise it will be cool. I will also probably include these little letter tassels I am making, until I run out.

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    Home-burned and hand-made from on the road (I currently live in a Honda Fit while moving across the country lol). This one is a bit of an arts n' crafts explosion. It's a letter on the outside and a computer on the inside. They are made out of recycled DVD cases, paper bags, and a million stickers and other little knick knacks.

    Each CD turns out a little different, and it's not going to look exactly like this photo, but I promise it will be cool.

    ALL PROCEEDS will go to The Trevor Project
    www.thetrevorproject.org

    Includes unlimited streaming of hatemail via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

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1.
I hate you I hate your songs You're never gonna get a job You'll never get a job, no You'll never get a job You're not as funny as you think you are Kid, you got lucky But everybody knows that you're a fraud We just let it go on But you'll never get a job You'll never get a job You'll never get a job because you’re not worth the money So all you got is me Your friends all hate you Cause you're so mean You're not pulling off that haircut And everybody stopped listening Soon as you started to speak You need attention From your touch screen But you can't be bothered To use that phone to your family Unless there's something you need And you'll never fall in love You'll never fall in love You'll never fall in love because you just like to party And you’re not enough for me Why you gotta be so mean Why you gotta mean so much to me
2.
The Family 03:26
I got the worst intentions But I sleep just fine at night N-n-n-knowing everybody thinks I'm fuckin around They say you're so cute, look at you Now you got your name in the paper, boy I didn't want to be the bakery boy I wanna be the big boss someday soon so I'm coming for you Tony I'm comin' for you (He's comin' for you) Don't wanna be a soldier, I wanna be the big boss I got a reputation I got a loaded gun And I aint gonna shoot my own foot this time Some people say I got a way (Away) Of always getting in the way (Hey!) But that's how always know what's going on And who's side are they on, anyway? And they say you're so cute, look at you Tryna get your face on the TV screen Well jokes on them cause that's exactly where it is And I'm comin' for you Tony I'm comin' for you (He's comin' for you) Don't wanna be a sucker, I wanna be a big shot I just wanna be Part of your family I just wanna be (He just wants to be) Part of that fantasy (Part of your family) Please let me be (He just wants to be) Part of your family (Part of The Family) I just wanna be (He just wants to be) Loved by somebody But you'll never hear a thing like that from a boy like me in a town like this so Yeah, I'm coming for you Tony I'm comin' for you (He's comin' for you) Was born to be a killer I wanna be a big shot someday soon, so I'm coming for you I'm coming for you (He's comin' for you) Don't wanna be a sucker I wanna be somebody
3.
Sunny <3 02:46
She's a beach bunny Sitting in the sun Watching all the people Watching everyone I'm sitting in the shadow Sitting in the shadow of her sun I wish I knew how to have that much fun I wish I was breezy like the shallow ocean But sitting in the shadow It never really bothered me much It's gonna be good It's gonna be so good It's gonna be good It's gonna be so good It's gonna be good It's gonna be so good It's gonna be good It's gonna be so good Now I wake up every morning and I run a hundred miles And then I take a shower and then I clean the house and Go to work, do your lessons, do your skin care routine and flossing Sun salutations, cardio and stretching, eating green and composting Start a garden, read feminist theory, make amends Call you grandmother and don't forget to call your friends Learn a language, make the Billboard hot 100 twice a week Activism, socializing, online dating and therapy You really gotta make time for these things You really gotta make time for these things I'm gonna be good I'm gonna be so good I'm gonna be good I'm gonna be so good I'm gonna be good I'm gonna be so good I'm gonna be good I'm gonna be so good She's a beach bunny Sitting in the sun Watching all the people Watching everyone I'm sitting in the shadow Sitting in the shadow of her sun
4.
300 emails Not one I'd want to read I'd rather eat my words than hear them thrown back at me 19 hours Til I can just disappear I'm not really sure where you'll end up But I kind of hope you're stuck here Just waiting for something to happen …Waiting... I wake up angry Cold air keeps me on my feet Bitter people Friendly coffee But they’re too weak Hey, congratulations on your participation trophy You're running on a hamster wheel But you’re faster than me Yeah everybody is faster than me Faster and better at Waiting For something to happen Anything really Just waiting So are you sure That I can't make you like me? Are you sure That I can't make you, I can't make you feel something? Anything really Tie me to my chair Cause I don’t wanna end up up there I don't wanna end up where I'm Waiting For something to happen Just waiting Tie me to my chair Cause I don't wanna end up up where I am
5.
Anecdoche 02:31
I walk down these halls But all the cool kids Walk walk walk all over me Each time I open my mouth You’re always right there a Talk talk talking over me What is so god damn important about your opinion? What is so god damn important about what you’re thinking? What is so god damn important about your opinion? What is so god damn important about your opinion? I hear you in my thoughts You’re always there a Pick pick picking on me Get out of my head Can’t I get some god damn privacy? What is so god damn important about your opinion? What is so god damn important about your opinion? You are not funny, you are not smart, you are not cool You are not good at sports, or kissing girls, or smart at school Your friends all laugh at you soon as you leave the room You’re never gonna fit in at this school What is so god damn important about your opinion? What is so god damn important about your opinion? You are not funny, you are not smart, you are not cool You’re never gonna fit in at this school
6.
I am a brand new person Now that I’ve received medication Don’t expect me to be a f-up You’ll be out of luck Cause I’m a damn brand new human being Let’s go Uh oh uh oh We're burnin down the house again (Burnin down the house) I don’t remember turning on the stove Uh oh uh oh We're crashing your party, whoa (Crashing on your couch) But I don’t really wanna go It's nice to know That's it's so easy being brand new Just take a pill But this feelings fleeting sometimes it goes I'd be a super human If I could just remember how to do it And by it I mean anything All the way And honey won't give me the time of day She’s says everything I got to say Is so cliche Tired excuses Uh oh uh oh Burnin down the house again (Burnin down the house) And I can never find the door Uh oh uh oh I’ll show up to your party, hey (Crashing on your couch) Cause I don't wanna be alone Oh So what now That I’ve got it all figured out So what now I made the pharmacist laugh and get distracted when I asked her that
7.
This is getting kinda weird Been hyped all day on the world’s smallest cup of coffee And theres nobody here I will take my clothes off There will be no one to find this shocking Talking about how its so wrong To make fun of the Jesus freaks And whine like you’re a teenager And use all those curse words in your songs Sorry mom I cut my bangs So I could see So I could get some work done But I couldn’t get them even And so I just kept on cutting Now they’re gone And everybody’s nice to me Most of the time Or maybe they just tolerate My pictures on the internet Participate in simulation Evaporate the second that I'm gone Is it so wrong To stay inside Stare at the phone Just want to hide Well I don’t owe you anything I don’t owe you anything No I don’t know you Hey its me Just calling to see how you’re doing I miss you… haven’t talked to you in a while So give me a call back whenever you get a chance I hope you’re doing good Is it so wrong To stay inside Stare at our touch screens Until we die We are alone And that’s alright She pulls this crap Like every night I don’t owe you anything I don’t owe you anything I don’t owe you anything No I don’t know you
8.
Sorry :) 00:59
I don't know why I hurt you Its just something I do I'd never treat anybody The way that I treat You and I We are the same That's why I don't know why I hate you I just know that I do If I could be anybody else That's just what I would... Do you wanna hang out sometime?

about

I like to deal with my anxiety in the very healthy manner of repeatedly telling myself what an annoying idiot jerk I am. Every once in a while it works because I realize how ridiculous I sound.

My theory is that fully succumbing to the mean voices in your lizard brain can be a helpful form of immersion therapy, in small doses. I tested this theory out on the characters of this record, from a macho mafia-aspirant plotting to kill Tony Soprano, to a FOMO-plagued socialite having a panic attack, to - well, myself. These characters dramatically lash out at themselves and others, with mixed results.

The mixtape starts off bold and angry and gradually runs out of steam until the narrator is left standing alone, with no choice but to make friends with themself.

“hatemail” was recorded with love in my home studio (“the fortress of songitude") with the help of my ex-music-theorist husband Ben and our two cats, who are professional sound engineers. The result is an indie-pop soundscape of anxiety, with ubiquitous foley and a cruel-but-angelic backing vocals of those pesky voices in your head.

I like to think this is the mixtape you would make for the person you hate most. <3

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released May 13, 2022

Written and produced by: Katie McTigue
Recorded at home in the “fortress of songitude” in Pittsburgh, PA
Mixed by: Katie McTigue and Curtis Fye (tracks 2, 3)
Mastered by: Marcell Kerepesi
Additional Musicians:
Ben Krock: bass (tracks 1, 7), guitar (track 1), drums (track 1), orchestra of horrors (track 3)
Peter Coles: guitars (track 5), keys (track 5)

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Pacing San Jose, California

Pacing is the songwriting and recording project of Katie McTigue. McTigue’s writing style has been described as “tongue firmly planted in cheek” (Surviving the Golden Age, 2022), an “off-kilter and wonderfully weird world” (CLOUT, 2022), and “I don’t get it” (multiple sources). Despite her safety net of colorful characters, jokes, and metaphors, the real her always manages to slip in somewhere. ... more

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